Friday, January 13, 2012

Tears of Joy and Sorrow

I'm sitting at my desk at work, obviously taking a break, but just for a few moments--I promise!!

I just read another Caring Bridge update about yet another child going thru a traumatic, life altering experience and I started to cry. It was a "good" update---if that is possible to say; that any of this could be good. I am truly amazed by the strength these babies and children have. They are ALL FIGHTERS!!!!!!!!!--every one of them that I know---they've been fighting since day 1 and continue to do so and even though I may not know them personally, I am so proud of them. That probably sounds a bit weird and almost stalker-ish. But in some way, shape or form, I know about these kids thru their parents, or thru our community, or on a very personal level.

I don't want to give out too much detail here as it is not my place to do so. I will just say this. This week, there have been some positive things happening and it makes me hopeful that maybe 2012 is going to turn things around. I've read updates on Facebook, Caring Bridge and even watched a couple videos--one of which brought both Steve and me to tears last night. Like I said, I cannot (and will not) give out details, so reading this is probably a little frustrating, but this video was just amazing to me. To be able to see parent and child the way they were was truly like nothing I've ever seen.

There has been some sadness this week as well, but I am going to choose to not write about it or dwell on it.  I am choosing to look at the positive in hopes it will bring more in the weeks and months ahead. EVERYDAY,
I think about these kids and their families, hoping my positive thoughts will do some good. I have no idea if they will, but I have to believe that they will.

So, today, to any of you who may be reading, please know my heart is with all of you. I think about you.
I hope for you. For those grownups who are having a rough time and struggling, I think about you as well and hope for your peace and happiness too.

With love,

Monday, January 9, 2012

I'm 13 and I Know It

LMFAO is ruining my life. I happen to enjoy some of their music....."Party Rock" and "I'm Sexy and I Know It" are fun. "Shots", not so much. "I Am Not a Whore"......I won't go there. But---these "musicians" (probably because one of them has a father in the music industry) are poisoning the minds of my children, but mostly, my oldest son's.

Since he turned 13 about 2 months ago.....this kid thinks he's a "shmexy beast" (whatever that is) and he knows everything and I, apparently, am a moron.  This all sounds par for the course, now that he is an official teenager, but, really, it's annoying.  I was 13 once too. I thought I knew it all and that my parents knew nothing. (little did I know...) But I NEVER walked around with this cocky, arrogant attitude making people try to believe that I was holier than thou.  I play it off that he is "self-confident" and has good "self-esteem". Right. If he keeps it up, in about 3 years, some girl is going to smack the shit out of him for acting like this. And, he'll deserve it.  Have I told him this? Nope. Remember, I am his MOTHER and I am a moron.

Is this how cocky guys start out??? Or---is it an influence of the stupid-ass songs on the radio?? I'm sexy and I know it...have you seen these two? I mean, I know that part of their "charm" is that they are making fun of themselves. But, something tells me they have girls fawning all over them. And, because of that, my son thinks that he too will have girls fawning all over him. Don't get me wrong---I mean, yes, I am completely biased as his mother---but the boy is so cute; has been since day 1. He has the same face as he did in his 3 month old picture. And, he is a NICE boy. (again...I admit to the bias) He's polite and kind and well mannered. (usually) I'll try not to hurt myself patting my own back. But, really, LMFAO is kind of ruining him, just a little bit. He'll treat a girl nicely, but he'll probably end up doing something stupid, as most guys do.  I know one day my baby will get his heart broken by some little every guy does. And then, it'll be up to this moron to fix it.