Tuesday, October 30, 2012

I'm Back

I'm back. Have you missed me? As much as I love writing, I haven't missed being here. Why? Because I was busy with my life; my children, my husband, my job, my home, my friends, you get the point.

And then, on October 14th, while talking with Steve (who was wearing a t-shirt I really couldn't stand) I apparently had a seizure. I say apparently because I have NO recollection of it at all. But, the paramedics confirmed it.  Steve confirmed it. Andrew confirmed it. Yes, not only did my husband have to witness it, but my oldest son did as well.  From my understanding, he was a rock star. He called 911 and handled everything while Steve tried to keep me from hurting myself.  Steve followed the ambulance to the hospital. Andrew called all the necessary people, including my BFF who was in the Bahamas and couldn't really do anything from there, but he probably didn't remember that. After all, he's a teenager now and doesn't listen to me. I guess I was doing ok at the hospital and I was going to get to go home, until I had seizure number 2 and was then admitted.

I really do not remember much of my hospital stay. The neurologist says that is normal. It doesn't feel normal. I haven't felt normal in 16 days. I've had an outpouring of help from family and friends and it is very much appreciated by me and my husband and kids. But, again, I have a LONG 6 months ahead of me as driving is off limits, AGAIN. I cannot begin to explain to you what it is like to have your freedom ripped away from you. I cannot do anything on my own, for the most part. I have to ask to go places. I HATE ASKING FOR HELP. I am a control freak. And now, I have no control. It makes me feel like a child. I hate it. I am back to wearing a medical ID bracelet. (guess I never should've removed the one I had on) My medication has been doubled. It exhausts me to no end.  That part *should wear off.  I am SO fortunate that the kids and Steve are being super wonderful. (of course, I had threatened no Hanukkah or birthdays)

At least this time, my 6 month sentence, is not during baseball season. I should be freed from this right as the season starts. And, thank goodness for online shopping as the holiday season approaches. As much as I don't enjoy crowds and, well people in general, I do love seeing all the decorations in the stores. It's my favorite time of year. I know, I can go to the stores with Steve or friends, but I like doing it MY WAY, like Frank Sinatra.

So, my friends, expect more entries from me. I'm not sure how amusing they'll be as me staring at the dog is kind of boring. I'll try my best. XO